Journals24
Newest
Freed from bondage, Alive in Christ!
20 min read
Jesus found me and loves me!
I wanted to share my testimony about how Jesus freed me from the deception of lesbianism from Satan and how Jesus saved me and the truth He has shown me and to share in love with others. I wanted to write about my amazing experiences and my love for our living Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!
I have always believed in God since I can remember and grew up in Church and went to Sunday School and vacation Bible school and always felt at home. Then when I was a teenager, I just stopped going to Church but never stopped believing in God. I went to Church very rarely since and then over ten or so years, I had an awakening. I was doing all kinds of things against God and a lot of the things I knew were wrong but I was in rebellion.
The Lord allowed me to see what I would be facing if I didn't turn to Him. He allowed me to see a demon and that hell is a real place and that I would be there if I didn't stop what I was doing. I didn't realize what I was doing as far as needing to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior and stop doing what I was doing. I knew things I did was wrong but I didn't know the extent of what my sin was doing. I didn't realize that I was breaking God's heart. I turned right to Jesus and proclaimed Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I went back to the church I grew up in and got down on my knees and cried out to Jesus and prayed and He was my Lord and Savior.
So Jesus was my Lord for about ten years but I still was missing something. As the years went by, I was slowly doing things against God because I never completely surrendered my will to Jesus. Even though my sin wasn't to the same extent, it was all equal in God's eyes. I also felt depressed for so long because of my ex-boyfriend leaving me back in 2002. Then in 2011, I felt like I had nothing left to live for when my grandmother passed away. I prayed to Jesus that I just want Him to bring me home as well because I didn't belong here. I lost my grandmother who was a second mother to me and like a best friend.
I just felt so lost and as time went on from when I first turned to Jesus, until September 2014, I got caught up in all kinds of sins, I didn't realize again, about complete surrender to The Lord. Mostly sexual sins I was doing. I didn't realize again, that I was breaking God's heart. And I also didn't realize that I was losing my salvation.
So Jesus was my Lord for about ten years but I still was missing something. As the years went by, I was slowly doing things against God because I never completely surrendered my will to Jesus. Even though my sin wasn't to the same extent, it was all equal in God's eyes. I also felt depressed for so long because of my ex-boyfriend leaving me back in 2002. Then in 2011, I felt like I had nothing left to live for when my grandmother passed away. I prayed to Jesus that I just want Him to bring me home as well because I didn't belong here. I lost my grandmother who was a second mother to me and like a best friend.
I just felt so lost and as time went on from when I first turned to Jesus, until September 2014, I got caught up in all kinds of sins, I didn't realize again, about complete surrender to The Lord. Mostly sexual sins I was doing. I didn't realize again, that I was breaking God's heart. And I also didn't realize that I was losing my salvation.
And then an amazing thing happened, a miracle happened. I was at the gym in September 2014, and while on the treadmill, The Lord put on my heart to live for Him. An incredible feeling. The Lord speaking to me in my spirit. Then I prayed that I want to live my life for Jesus and that I give Him my whole heart and soul and everything of me. I wanted Him to lead my life and me not live for myself anymore.
That day, after leaving the gym, I was at a stop light. There was a truck in front of me. In huge painted letters, read "The way maker" and underneath, "Jesus will make a way." There are no words. Jesus came into my heart. The next day, I saw a license plate that said I'll return for you in an abbreviated way.
Shortly after, one day I was worshiping and praising and I felt His presence come upon me and I'll never forget it. I have also felt the fire and the water. The baptism by fire and the living water. It was so amazing and incredible and I knew at that moment that He loves and forgives me my sins. I just want to worship and praise Him for eternity and be with Him, The Father and The Holy Spirit in God's Kingdom for eternity.
It wasn't until I completely surrendered my will to Jesus that I felt the overcoming of the Holy Spirit.
It wasn't until I completely surrendered my will to Jesus that I felt the overcoming of the Holy Spirit.
So when I gave my life to Jesus, in September 2014, the sinful desires that were in me, from Satan, were no longer there. Satan put the desires in me, but Jesus took them away. When I felt the overcoming of the Holy Spirit, I was never feeling so alive and free. And when we have the Holy Spirit, we don’t want to sin at all. I was dead in my sins but now I am alive in Christ. Here on earth, we will have temptations but I don't want to sin anymore. And I want to share with you this truth that The Lord has shown me and many others to know to share with others. Satan put all kinds of stuff in my mind but Jesus freed me from that bondage. Jesus also showed me this scripture:
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
9 Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,10 nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
I was dying spiritually and breaking God's heart but I was washed and cleansed by the blood of Jesus. I care about everyone and want no one to be deceived by the enemy and that's why I'm sharing what I've been through and how Jesus freed me and His truth to share with others in love. I know not everyone will receive or accept but after what I've been through, I can't not share. I pray and share God's truth in love and how He's changed me and freed me from Satan's bondage and saved me.
Before I gave to Jesus, all my sexual immorality was taking me further and further away from God. I also want to share, talk about and inform about one of my biggest sins I was caught up in before Jesus freed me and about how he freed me. Especially now after what the SCOTUS did back in June. And share an amazing testimony from a woman who was caught up in this deception even more than I was, and Jesus lead me to this testimony on YouTube that I included below. And this is not about hating people, this is about hating the sin, which Christ died on the cross to save us all from. And this is something I was caught up in before I gave my life to Jesus.
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
9 Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,10 nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
I was dying spiritually and breaking God's heart but I was washed and cleansed by the blood of Jesus. I care about everyone and want no one to be deceived by the enemy and that's why I'm sharing what I've been through and how Jesus freed me and His truth to share with others in love. I know not everyone will receive or accept but after what I've been through, I can't not share. I pray and share God's truth in love and how He's changed me and freed me from Satan's bondage and saved me.
Before I gave to Jesus, all my sexual immorality was taking me further and further away from God. I also want to share, talk about and inform about one of my biggest sins I was caught up in before Jesus freed me and about how he freed me. Especially now after what the SCOTUS did back in June. And share an amazing testimony from a woman who was caught up in this deception even more than I was, and Jesus lead me to this testimony on YouTube that I included below. And this is not about hating people, this is about hating the sin, which Christ died on the cross to save us all from. And this is something I was caught up in before I gave my life to Jesus.
Romans 6:20-23
Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ
20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. 21 But what fruit were you getting at that time from the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. 22 But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I am writing you because I am being greatly led by the Holy Spirit to share this truth in love and I don't want anyone to be deceived. Satan put lesbianism in my mind for over the course of years. And it was taking me further and further away from God. But when I gave my life to Jesus, I was freed from Satan's bondage. I was caught up in all this stuff and I realized recently that to not share God's truth (after what happened to me) in a loving way and let people just go on and do their own thing thinking it's okay is being hateful and basically saying to people that you don't care if they're separated from God for eternity.It's wrong to hold up signs that God hates gays or to completely disown a family member. God loves us all so much but He hates sin and we also are to hate sin. I was loving my sin but I was also breaking God's heart. God is leading me and everyone who is truly following Him, to share the truth in a loving way and pray for the people to come to Jesus. We don't support or celebrate sin but pray for the people to come to Jesus. Romans 1 in addition to other places in God's Word shares that God has given people over to their sins. We have turned our backs on Him as a nation and world and He has given people over to their sin. It's all in God's Word, The Holy Bible. I want no one to be deceived. That's what Satan does. He puts whatever he can into people's minds to keep us away from God. He wants to drag us down to where he is.
When you read all of God's Word, The Holy Bible and are filled with The Holy Spirit, God makes it very clear that He doesn't make anyone that way. Satan is the true enemy of our souls and doesn't want us to be with Jesus and he knows only Jesus saves and he lies and deceives and puts confusion and perversions in people's minds. I was included but Jesus freed me from Satan's bondage. Please watch the video below and other videos on my page from this woman who was a gay activist and another follower of Jesus who shares how Jesus freed him and how Jesus freed her just like He freed me.
Please seek Jesus and He will free you like He freed me. This whole LGBT lifestyle is not from God, it's from Satan. We need to share the truth in a loving way and pray for these people to be free of Satan’s bondage. And the most loving thing we can do is share the truth in a loving way and pray for people. Not encourage sin but encourage these people to come out of this destructive lifestyle. Because you can't love both the person and their sin at the same time. I care about people and want no one to be deceived by the enemy. Satan is attacking God's plan by putting all this stuff in people's minds. Satan attacked God's plan by having prayer taken out of school. Satan attacked God's plan by having abortion legal. Satan attacked God's plan back on June 2015 with the same sex marriage thing. When we turn our backs on God, we are letting Satan in. This is the truth that is the reality we need to acknowledge.
So no longer am I being led by man or my fleshly desires (even though here on earth, we will be tempted), I am being led by God, through the Holy Spirit and I share this with you so you might also be free in Christ. And when we have the Holy Spirit in us, no sin will we feel comfortable supporting because God doesn't support any sin.
The truth is we are all in a fallen world, all broken and born with a sinful nature, all in a spiritual battle, and all in need of Jesus who is the only one who can free us from Satan's bondage. This is why it's so very important to stay very close to Jesus and be in His Word. No matter what sin Satan has us trapped in, whether drunkenness, theft, homosexuality, lesbianism, adultry, pornography, drugs, or any other sin, we have a Lord and Savior, Jesus, who will break those chains when we turn to Him. We need to proclaim Jesus' freeing power whenever someone is struggling with something and pray for them. Jesus freed me from Satan's bondage and He will do the same for anyone and everyone who will let Him.
Notice the starred part. I was more than one of those but I was washed and cleansed by the blood of Christ. That's why we are to pray and not support sin. We can't be made new in Christ until we come to Him with a repentant heart. And there was a time I was loving my sin but I was breaking God's heart. Now that I surrendered my will to Jesus, I am being led by the Holy Spirit to pray for people and share the truth in love. God wants us to come to Him as we are but He's not going to keep us where we are. We will become more and more like Christ. But we have to be willing to let Him.
If we all opened our hearts and seek Him with our whole heart, he will come. He will come. He wants us all to be with Him. He loves us.I just wanted to share this and I wanted to share these couple scriptures:
Matthew 7:7
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.…
Psalm 37:4
Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.…
It's so amazing how your life will change when you start living your life for Jesus. All the time you hear about people's lives changing when they turn to God and people having these experiences like feeling His presence or seeing Jesus or an angel or Heaven. It's not just a coincidence. He comes to those who are really thirsty for Him and want the love, peace and righteousness that He is. Jesus, God The Father and The Holy Spirit are love itself, peace itself and righteousness itself. He wants us to be with Him in His kingdom for eternity. We just need to believe in Him and open our hearts and put everything in His hands.
I surrender everything to Him and I never have felt so free and alive. Now that He is leading my life and I am no longer living for myself, it's so amazing and I just want to be with Him. I realize I do have a purpose in my life and everything good is because of Jesus. He knows every single thing about me and I am learning more and more about Him by reading The Bible. He is the true friend anyone can ever have. I am so happy to have Jesus as my Lord and as my Savior. He loves me and died on the cross for me. He died on the cross for all of us because He loves us all so much. I can never give enough thanks and praise and worship to Him for what He did for me, for us. He saved my life and I live my life for Him and I just want to be there with the saints and angels in Heaven praising, worshiping and singing to Him for eternity. There are no words for how much I love Him and how grateful I am to Him.
I have cried tears of joy for Him loving me and being with me and I truly can never have a better best friend. Jesus is my true best friend. I love Him above all, He is above all. I love you so much, more than anything, Jesus! You are the reason I am here and I am nothing without you!
I have all this love and it's Jesus, our Lord and Savior that I give it all to!
:thumb99157936::thumb59915399::thumb67805465:
<da:thumb id="599103615"/>
I am writing you because I am being greatly led by the Holy Spirit to share this truth in love and I don't want anyone to be deceived. Satan put lesbianism in my mind for over the course of years. And it was taking me further and further away from God. But when I gave my life to Jesus, I was freed from Satan's bondage. I was caught up in all this stuff and I realized recently that to not share God's truth (after what happened to me) in a loving way and let people just go on and do their own thing thinking it's okay is being hateful and basically saying to people that you don't care if they're separated from God for eternity.
There's a right way and wrong way to go about things.
This horrible law by SCOTUS this past June is an attack by Satan on God's plan.
I am praying for everyone. Our living God, our living Lord and Savior, Jesus, our Heavenly Father, is holy and He does NOT make anyone gay or lesbian or transgender or bi.
Satan put in my mind that deception he does with thousands and thousands of people, to be with the same sex but The Lord freed me and showed me the truth. If I were to be in unrepentant sexual immorality which includes homosexuality, then I would not spend eternity with Jesus because our bodies are supposed to be temples for The Holy Spirit. Light and dark cannot live in us at the same time. A person cannot be LGBT and a true follower of Jesus at the same time. Don't be deceived by Satan (who also makes people believe in evolution to keep people away from God) which is what the devil wants. Jesus will free you from Satan's bondage if you let Him, like He did for me.
Please seek Jesus and He will free you like He freed me. This whole LGBT lifestyle is not from God, it's from Satan. We need to share the truth in a loving way and pray for these people to be free of Satan’s bondage. And the most loving thing we can do is share the truth in a loving way and pray for people. Not encourage sin but encourage these people to come out of this destructive lifestyle. Because you can't love both the person and their sin at the same time. I care about people and want no one to be deceived by the enemy. Satan is attacking God's plan by putting all this stuff in people's minds. Satan attacked God's plan by having prayer taken out of school. Satan attacked God's plan by having abortion legal. Satan attacked God's plan back on June 2015 with the same sex marriage thing. When we turn our backs on God, we are letting Satan in. This is the truth that is the reality we need to acknowledge.
So no longer am I being led by man or my fleshly desires (even though here on earth, we will be tempted), I am being led by God, through the Holy Spirit and I share this with you so you might also be free in Christ. And when we have the Holy Spirit in us, no sin will we feel comfortable supporting because God doesn't support any sin.
The truth is we are all in a fallen world, all broken and born with a sinful nature, all in a spiritual battle, and all in need of Jesus who is the only one who can free us from Satan's bondage. This is why it's so very important to stay very close to Jesus and be in His Word. No matter what sin Satan has us trapped in, whether drunkenness, theft, homosexuality, lesbianism, adultry, pornography, drugs, or any other sin, we have a Lord and Savior, Jesus, who will break those chains when we turn to Him. We need to proclaim Jesus' freeing power whenever someone is struggling with something and pray for them. Jesus freed me from Satan's bondage and He will do the same for anyone and everyone who will let Him.
When we completely surrender our will to The Lord's and want to truly follow Him, the Holy Spirit comes in and lives in us and helps us to be more and more like Christ. We are being hateful when we encourage ANY sin instead of praying for the people. When Jesus was on that cross, He said Father, forgive them for they know not what they do. So we also pray because chains from Satan need to be broken. Satan has so many people trapped in bondage of pornography, drugs, homosexuality, lesbianism as he did with me, alcoholism and any other sin. Jesus will free us when we turn to Him and let Him free us.
God loves us all but He hates sin. He calls us to love everyone as a person but hate their sin. We can't both love someone and love their sin at the same time. We are to pray for them and share the truth in love. We are all sinners and the best thing and most loving thing we can do is pray for the people.
◄ Romans 5:8 ►
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Jesus didn't die on the cross for us to keep sinning. He died on the cross to SAVE us from our sin. Jesus shows this other scripture:
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
Or do you not know that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, swindlers, shall inherit the kingdom of God.
********And such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, and in the Spirit of our God.**********
Notice the starred part. I was more than one of those but I was washed and cleansed by the blood of Christ. That's why we are to pray and not support sin. We can't be made new in Christ until we come to Him with a repentant heart. And there was a time I was loving my sin but I was breaking God's heart. Now that I surrendered my will to Jesus, I am being led by the Holy Spirit to pray for people and share the truth in love. God wants us to come to Him as we are but He's not going to keep us where we are. We will become more and more like Christ. But we have to be willing to let Him.
If we all opened our hearts and seek Him with our whole heart, he will come. He will come. He wants us all to be with Him. He loves us.I just wanted to share this and I wanted to share these couple scriptures:
Matthew 7:7
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.…
Psalm 37:4
Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.…
It's so amazing how your life will change when you start living your life for Jesus. All the time you hear about people's lives changing when they turn to God and people having these experiences like feeling His presence or seeing Jesus or an angel or Heaven. It's not just a coincidence. He comes to those who are really thirsty for Him and want the love, peace and righteousness that He is. Jesus, God The Father and The Holy Spirit are love itself, peace itself and righteousness itself. He wants us to be with Him in His kingdom for eternity. We just need to believe in Him and open our hearts and put everything in His hands.
I surrender everything to Him and I never have felt so free and alive. Now that He is leading my life and I am no longer living for myself, it's so amazing and I just want to be with Him. I realize I do have a purpose in my life and everything good is because of Jesus. He knows every single thing about me and I am learning more and more about Him by reading The Bible. He is the true friend anyone can ever have. I am so happy to have Jesus as my Lord and as my Savior. He loves me and died on the cross for me. He died on the cross for all of us because He loves us all so much. I can never give enough thanks and praise and worship to Him for what He did for me, for us. He saved my life and I live my life for Him and I just want to be there with the saints and angels in Heaven praising, worshiping and singing to Him for eternity. There are no words for how much I love Him and how grateful I am to Him.
I have cried tears of joy for Him loving me and being with me and I truly can never have a better best friend. Jesus is my true best friend. I love Him above all, He is above all. I love you so much, more than anything, Jesus! You are the reason I am here and I am nothing without you!
I have all this love and it's Jesus, our Lord and Savior that I give it all to!
:thumb99157936::thumb59915399::thumb67805465:
<da:thumb id="599103615"/>Stamps
YOUR STAMPS HERE
Friends
YOUR FRIENDS ICONS HERE
Skin by IamRinoaHeartilly
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Friends and favorites feature!
50 min read
This is so motivational and inspirational!
Awesome montages:
I wanted to feature many of my friends' works and other favorites from over the past year. I'll try to do another feature halfway through the year with others that didn't get included in this one. I thank everyone for all the support!
Also, check out the two videos above which are new songs from Within Temptation's new album which releases next month! In no particular order:<da:thumb id="419719846"/>
<da:thumb id="415860010"/>
<da:thumb id="407613136"/>
<da:thumb id="411427506"/>
Mature Content
<da:thumb id="384814399"/>
Mature Content
<da:thumb id="348160618"/>
<da:thumb id="396362919"/>
<da:thumb id="349878263"/>
<da:thumb id="430631108"/>
<da:thumb id="358124311"/>
<da:thumb id="392957756"/>
<da:thumb id="387163545"/>
Mature Content
<da:thumb id="426168152"/><da:thumb id="286690361"/>
<da:thumb id="392738556"/>
<da:thumb id="385253073"/>
<da:thumb id="426274015"/>
<da:thumb id="203134238"/>
<da:thumb id="425845204"/>
<da:thumb id="415131770"/>
<da:thumb id="346849110"/>
<da:thumb id="395228940"/>
<da:thumb id="427605542"/>
<da:thumb id="427585119"/>
<da:thumb id="428137278"/>
<da:thumb id="427390837"/><da:thumb id="427205633"/>
<da:thumb id="427710888"/>
<da:thumb id="426533571"/>
These are some paintings my grandmother did:
[Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose]UPDATE: August 14, 2012: I'm still working on that Phantom manip, as it turns out that much more work was needed than I originally thought. Keep an eye out!
[Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose][Black Rose]
I thank everyone for their support and patience! [Heart]
<da:thumb id="91964814"/><da:thumb id="109423260"/><da:thumb id="85004338"/>
Stamps
YOUR STAMPS HERE
Friends
YOUR FRIENDS ICONS HERE
Skin by IamRinoaHeartilly
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Friends and favorites feature!
49 min read
Well, I wanted to feature some of my friends work that I love and have seen over the past year. Unfortunately, I can't include everything and I'll try to do another one soon with more. Also, I know lately it seems that I'm lacking in creativity. That's not the problem. The problem is having too much inspiration and having to work a lot more now. I'm trying to improve so things are taking longer but I have a lot better stuff I'm working on. In no particular order (one has a cool animation ending):
:thumb256897159::thumb259500577:
:thumb268057415::thumb283589635:
:thumb302235998::thumb307818935:
:thumb274091127::thumb253266099:
:thumb315032491::thumb291569216:
:thumb310374469::thumb267014920:
:thumb306157411:
:thumb320452385::thumb309973885::thumb318569378::thumb314408945:
:thumb313068947::thumb319168537::thumb318978208::thumb311864077:
:thumb320946247::thumb310708610::thumb318613267::thumb316449658:
:thumb282284909::thumb271374645:
:thumb306904595:
Mature Content
:thumb317202685::thumb308351008:
Mature Content
Mature Content
:thumb301661058::thumb316199393::thumb315621612::thumb242558750:
:thumb279622718::thumb211271765::thumb209348026:
:thumb266396488::thumb315862656::thumb318971634::thumb287941875:
:thumb303873467::thumb302856076:
:thumb321328414::thumb309161247::thumb304646327::thumb211797720:
:thumb316166426::thumb315188597::thumb316122077::thumb277482010:
Mature Content
:thumb301165349::thumb310109771:
:thumb283933042::thumb291544025:
:thumb303496589:
:thumb308217790::thumb263790384:The Oracle by CelticStrm:thumb298463875:The Three Sisters by babsartcreationsYou Are Not Alone by babsartcreationsEnchantment by JennLaaPoison Ivy by JennLaaAlice returns I by Creamydigitalbroceliande by Creamydigitalonce upon a fairy tale by JenaDellaGrottagliathe great egg hunt by JenaDellaGrottagliaDeath Portal by PSHoudiniWater Stallion by PSHoudini:thumb307024812::thumb320386025:Tonight we march by robhas1leftHide and seek by robhas1leftLa Opera by Phatpuppyart-StudiosAlice Revisited by Phatpuppyart-Studiostime for the magic by mashamaklautSleeping Beauty by mashamaklautRaven's Manor by AeliaNaqwiDesignsOn Another's Sorrow by AeliaNaqwiDesignsWoodland Friends by FerelwingRose Red by Ferelwing:thumb306567489::thumb262360998:Under the Sea by brandrificusMermaid *Goodbye* by brandrificusDevil in My Mind by ForestGirlSilky swarm by ForestGirlJust another Fairy Day by DesignbyKattEllesmera by DesignbyKatt:thumb316944888::thumb308462051:Angels Fall First by PauBuenoZthe mystery behind the door by PauBuenoZCall from the Grave by MiloshJevremovicHalloween by MiloshJevremovic:thumb306934476::thumb313021797:R E D by LadyNight93:thumb305939603:Toys In The Attic by VisualPoetressEyes Without A Face by VisualPoetressCardinals Dance by MeliOakheartThe Apple for Snowwithe by MeliOakheartAlone In Death by AshlieNelsonTwilight Masquerade by AshlieNelsonThe one they left behind by Shady-Lady90Red Riding Hood by MichelVictorThese are some paintings my grandmother did:
Winter in the forest by PrincessMagical Flower garden by PrincessMagical Cat in the garden by PrincessMagical
UPDATE: August 14, 2012: I'm still working on that Phantom manip, as it turns out that much more work was needed than I originally thought. Keep an eye out!
I thank everyone for their support and patience!
Phantom Fans Icon by iluvdevilschildPhantom Phan stamp by LoathsomeGargoylePhantom of the Opera Stamp by slayerchick303
:thumb91964814::thumb109423260::thumb85004338:
Stamps
YOUR STAMPS HERE
Friends
YOUR FRIENDS ICONS HERE
Skin by IamRinoaHeartilly
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
My life is over
15 min read
October 29, 2011
My life is officially over. I don't even know what to do or what to say. My grandmother is gone. I've been crying non-stop since around 2 pm (Saturday). She was doing so good and talked to me and then Thursday night we were told by the doctor to give her these anti-biotics because she had a blood infection. Before I was going to give her these anti-biotics, we were called and said that all the numbers of the blood test didn't look right so the doctor would be out on Friday to take more blood to see if maybe something wrong happened. I was told to just in case, give her these anti-biotics and it wouldn't do anything to her. Then after I gave it to her, I noticed that it seemed like she was having really bad acid reflux or something like that but soon after, she seemed better. Then Friday, she was able to eat breakfast and she seemed much better. Later Friday night, I noticed that she also wasn't able to eat. But she looked pretty good when I got her up this morning (Saturday). She looked better this morning. But when I tried giving her food, she wasn't able to eat. I had her back in the bed and I noticed her breathing differently and I was actually calling 911 and just when I called them, I didn't see her breathing and they told me about giving her CPR and I had someone else with me and trying to help who was a CNA. While I was on the phone, the ambulance people came in and looked at her and said she was gone and there was nothing they could do. My whole world just completely crashed down and I am not kidding when when I say I had to be led out into the living room. I couldn't even walk by myself. No one will ever understand how devastated I am and how I feel like my whole life is over.
My life is over. I can't stop crying and she was in such great condition for her age and she talked to me and told me she loves me. After she got back out of the hospital back in June, I was doing so much more for her and she was so impressive for someone her age. It's too soon. She was so good, it's too soon. I wanted years with her to be able to talk to her and show her my pictures and now that won't happen. It's not fair because it's not like she didn't have family like myself who really cared and loved her. I'm not ready for her to go. I'm actually crying while I type this. I never wanted this day to come but I knew one day but I really felt it would be years still. Not at 92. No one understands how much she means to me. In some ways, I felt closer to her than my mother. My grandmother and I were always so close. This is officially the worst day of my life. I just can't believe I'll never be able to help her up in the morning or say goodnight to her again. She was so good after the blood transfusion in June. It's just not fair. So many things left unsaid and I really feel like it's my fault. If I just did better and tried harder, even though everyone was telling me how good of a job I was doing, I feel like I'm part to blame, especially for giving her those anti-biotics. If I never gave her those anti-biotics, she would still be with us right now, I'm sure of it because she wasn't having trouble swallowing or breathing like she did after I gave them to her. The nurse who prescribed them told me they would be safe even if she didn't have an infection. But I'm to blame for giving them to her and now she's gone. It's too soon for her to go. It's too soon. For the rest of my life, I'll never completely be guilt free. Everyone has been telling me that I was such a great granddaughter and I am not at all to blame but I feel like I could have done more. Like I said, I've always been so very close to her my whole life and nothing will ever devastate me as much as this. I don't know what else to say without starting to sound redundant. I don't know how to deal. This is truly the worst day of my entire life. It's just not fair. Her vitals were always so great and it's not like she was a complete vegetable for months on end. I really believe it was those pills and the police told me it's not my fault but I never should have given her those pills even though the doctor said they would be okay. My life will never be the same. Nothing will ever be the same again.
I thank everyone who took the time to read all this and prayed for her. It really means so much. I just want my grandmother back. I'm truly, truly devastated. I can't stop crying.
These are some paintings she did. Please read the descriptions.
When I put this
up, I didn't even know what I know now. I just found out that my grandmother got an infection and they said it looks like it could be just a skin infection but not 100% sure. Of course, I'm blaming myself. I feel like I could do better. I just know that the next 5 or so days are going to be very crucial and I'll have to give her these anti-biotics. I don't know how this happened but anyone who could pray for her would mean so much to me. I thank everyone!UPDATE: July 5, 2011: I'm still working on that Phantom manip, as it turns out that much more work was needed than I originally thought. Keep an eye out!
UPDATED: August 2, 2011: My grandmother got pneumonia and was in the hospital over a month ago and has some pressure sores and any prayers anyone can give would be greatly appreciated! I am caring for her a lot more now and I'm basically being a nurse to her so I haven't been online as much but I will be uploading more stuff as I finish them.
I thank everyone for their support and patience!
:thumb91964814::thumb109423260::thumb85004338:
Stamps
YOUR STAMPS HERE
Friends
YOUR FRIENDS ICONS HERE
Skin by IamRinoaHeartilly
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
A Happy New Year to everyone and features!
19 min read
I wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year and thank everyone who has supported me and faved, commented, added me to their watch list and/or prayed for my grandmother! It means so much!
So I've decided to feature my all time favorite art from 2010! These are amazing and I wish I could feature everything from 2010 that I love so I'm breaking it up into parts. This is part one of my absolute favorites!
:thumb180830778::thumb179134413:
:thumb175074687:
:thumb149292834:
Mature Content
:thumb188998411::thumb187270280::thumb176565281::thumb184491520:
:thumb168808176::thumb175927743::thumb173775759:
:thumb176808889:
Mature Content
:thumb184305767::thumb188460714:
:thumb187142361:
:thumb187537428::thumb182423797:
:thumb181842841:
:thumb156173732:
:thumb190322099:
:thumb190250947:
:thumb190729894:
:thumb156641522:
:thumb175016622::thumb190155758::thumb168108758::thumb158239562:
:thumb165674263:
:thumb189102959:Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Featured
Freed from bondage, Alive in Christ! by PrincessMagical, journal
Freed from bondage, Alive in Christ!
Jesus found me and loves me!
I wanted to share my testimony about how Jesus freed me from the deception of lesbianism from Satan and how Jesus saved me and the truth He has shown me and to share in love with others. I wanted to write about my amazing experiences and my love for our living Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ! ~bigheartplz (https://www.deviantart.com/bigheartplz)
I have always believed in God since I can remember and grew up in Church and went to Sunday School and vacation Bible school and always felt at home. Then when I was a teenager, I just stopped going to Church but never stopped believing in God. I went to Church very rarely since and then over ten or so y
Friends and favorites feature! by PrincessMagical, journal
Friends and favorites feature!
This is so motivational and inspirational!
Awesome montages:
:blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose:
:blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::b
Friends and favorites feature! by PrincessMagical, journal
Friends and favorites feature!
:blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose:
Well, I wanted to feature some of my friends work that I love and have seen over the past year. Unfortunately, I can't include everything and I'll try to do another one soon with more. Also, I know lately it seems th
My life is over by PrincessMagical, journal
My life is over
October 29, 2011
My life is officially over. I don't even know what to do or what to say. My grandmother is gone. I've been crying non-stop since around 2 pm (Saturday). She was doing so good and talked to me and then Thursday night we were told by the doctor to give her these anti-biotics because she had a blood infection. Before I was going to give her these anti-biotics, we were called and said that all the numbers of the blood test didn't look right so the doctor would be out on Friday to take more blood to see if maybe something wrong happened. I was told to just in case, give her these anti-biotics and it wouldn't do anything to
A Happy New Year to everyone and features! by PrincessMagical, journal
A Happy New Year to everyone and features!
I wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year and thank everyone who has supported me and faved, commented, added me to their watch list and/or prayed for my grandmother! It means so much! ~bigheartplz (https://www.deviantart.com/bigheartplz)
So I've decided to feature my all time favorite art from 2010! These are amazing and I wish I could feature everything from 2010 that I love so I'm breaking it up into parts. This is part one of my absolute favorites! :heart:
:thumb181042846::thumb180830778::thumb179121916::thumb179134413::thumb175888084::thumb175289214::thumb175307947::thumb175074687::thumb171101085::thumb169054893::thumb167098794::thumb159887072::thumb154978812::thumb1